Actually, I am a little insecure this month. ☹
September—while awesome—flew by and stole with it all my time to write. I’m not making excuses for myself because I did write, just not as much as I’d like. Not as much as I needed to stay on my timeline, which means I’m thrown off, people. Which means I won’t be able to do a pre-order now ☹. My own fault. All the lessons are being learned, but it does still make me feel insecure. Will I finish in time? Will I make my promised release date? Will it all come together in the end? Will I finally take up drinking fulltime?
The comforting thing is that I’m feeling good about what I’m writing. I’ll finish a scene (knowing I’ll revisit it 1-2 more times) and think, ‘can’t wait for them to read it!’ That’s one of the best things as an author. Knowing you get to share something you’re excited about with everyone, hoping they’ll enjoy it as much as you do. It’s super scary, but worth it! So, yes, I’m insecure that I fucked up with how I decided to publish this whole thing, but beyond thrilled to be able to share it .
Also: have you seen the trailer for A Star is Born? I haven’t seen the other two, but this third version looks amazing. So amazing in fact that I’ve watched the trailer twice daily for the past few days. I’m like one of those fourteen year old girls who watched Titanic ten times in the movie theaters (I WASN’T—I only saw it once) but my love for this trailer seems on par with their intense feelings of Leo’s stirring performance. I don’t know what it is—the song, the movie clips, the actors? I don’t care. It looks amazing and I can’t wait to see Bradley Cooper & Lady Gaga this weekend 😊
Now that I think about it, maybe I’m so into this trailer because I’ve been writing about a musician in love. It’s kind of giving me that extra oomph to finish Better Than You because I see a finish line every time I watch it.
Anyway, I’m going to go watch it again because we talked about this. Then, more writing. Happy IWSG day! Try to rise above your insecurities and to make all your dreams come true. And try not to fuck up your timeline like I did. 😊
Insecure Writer’s Support Group (IWSG) is a monthly blog hop for writers at all levels to share their fears and insecurities in a safe and encouraging place. Please drop by and say hi to Alex Cavanaugh who started this nifty concept in bringing us all together.