Halloween & IWSG

Happy Halloween!

I only say that because it’s currently Halloween and I’m still in the ghoulish spirit. I know you’re reading this tomorrow, November 1st, but you should hop in your DeLorean and come back a day because I have to mention Halloween for a second:

Clearly, I’m shit faced—but Yes! We were Sharon & Randy Marsh! You know, from South Park 😊. We didn’t go the extra mile and make the cartoon faces but I blame that on the fact that I was putting together an ENTIRE PIRATE HALLOWEEN PARTY and had to throw creative amazingness all over, so it’s okay that I skimmed on our costumes a little. But look at those awesome testicles! Still super proud of my handy-work, and I should be, because every lady went in for a feel at least once 😉 (if you’ve never seen the episode, Randy gives himself testicular cancer to get medicinal marijuana. The joke is that they were so large he was able to bounce them down the road.)

I was really planning on taking a ton of pictures during the ho-down but the extrovert in me was busy chatting it up so I didn’t. I snapped a few the next morning before I cleaned up:

I hope you had a good Halloween and that you got the good candy you like. I hope the kids don’t take all our candy and that Appa doesn’t lose his shit every time the doorbell rings (but that’s wishful thinking.)

Okay! Onto writing stuff 😊

October was another great month of writing the second part of my trilogy and I’m still jamming to the New-Found-Glory soundtrack that’s been inspiring me during this entire creative endeavor. At some point I know I have to Cowboy the Fuck up and get a few BETAs to read BTT. I’m REALLY excited about writing the rest of the story… but I guess I am very nervous about the first being read too, which is why I keep putting it off. Like, I know I’m going to go through it at least once more and make some changes (thanks to discovering things from book 2!) so it’s a good thing that I haven’t let anyone read it yet. But even when I feel *really* good about it, I still think I’ll be nervous. I know that’s normal… but I don’t want to let my fear keep the story—or me—from growing.

Enough of that and onto the optional November Question:

Win or not, do you usually finish your NANO project? Have any of them gone on to be published?

I… have never done NANO. Like, ever. It doesn’t appeal to me one bit, and I think it’s because I associate it with stress and don’t need stress ANYWHERE near my writing. I get why people do it. The challenge and holding yourself accountable and all that but I do that anyway. Like, every day. I don’t know… it feels like I would be doing the same thing but being harder on myself about it.

After a few years of consistent writing, I have my own schedule that allows me to get immense amounts of work done while not feeling guilty if I’ve missed a day or two. I think everyone has a system that works for them and if some people thrive on the time-challenge—that’s great. I’m just not one of those people.

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Hurricanes and Vacations and comics! IWSG

Here I am again, waiting until the last second. In my defense, I tried writing this last night, but I wanted to scan in this thing I was working on that I PROMISED myself I would put on my blog, and instead, spent half an hour trying to figure out how to scan things to my computer. Yeah. I even had Batman stop playing Cuphead—his long-awaited 1930s animated video game—to come help.

STILL. NOT. WORKING.

The reason I wanted the scanner to work is because of my first Morty & Co. comic!I made a promise to myself (& Ari!) to put it up on the next IWSG post and, like the smarty I am, I waited until TWO nights before to get the images onto my computer. And now it won’t. So…

…I went cavewoman and took pictures! Yay for going vintage!

Here’s how some of my September went  (left to right, you’ll have to click to enlarge. Or skip over. That’s completely cool too):

Just starting off in this comic thing but I’m having fun. And maybe that art degree won’t be for nothing 😉

So, yeah. Hurricanes right? The BF and I did go to Epcot and Animal Kingdom for my birthday, and that was loads of fun. I even got a picture with Flick!

It was definitely the vacation we needed at that moment, so the month wasn’t totally crazy.

ALSO: I got a lot of writing done.

Like a HUGE amount.

Like… maybe…I’m almost finished writing book 2… (Just a recap—no one has read book 1. Like no one. Like, not even my mom. Or Batman. I haven’t read it to Appa, even. Only me and this computer and the ghost I’m pretty sure haunts my office has seen it.) But it’s crazy because it’s helping me look at book 1 a little closer (some of you guys mentioned that in the comments) and I’m loving that I’m re-examining the story based on what I know is going to happen in the future. Plus, I’ve been having a lot of fun writing it.

So. Yeah. Hurricanes and Disney birthdays and book 2 writing. September was quite the month. I’ll go ahead and answer the optional question because I like answering questions.

Have you ever slipped any of your personal information into your characters, either by accident or on purpose?

Are we not supposed to? No, for real. I do this all the time. An old street I lived on or four digits of a friend’s phone number. Absolutely. But nothing too important. Trait wise… that’s a completely different conversation. 😉

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IWSG – Book 2 Already?

August was interesting.

A lot of parts were sad and some were scary. But I got to watch my grandpuppy for the month and that made things a little better. (Except her gas. That made things terrible again). It was great having River over the house because she distracted Appa every time I sat down to write. And I did. A lot. Like, I started writing the second book in my series which I KNOW is a HUGE NO-NO because not a single person has read the first. A lot could change in the first…which would affect the second. I know.

BUT GUYS.

It’s all just coming to me. Like, chapter after chapter after chapter. It’s like being in Panster Paradise over here. Again, everything I’m writing could change… or I could be learning stuff about my first book by writing what comes after. I don’t know. But I’m not going to stop just because it’s not what I ‘should be doing next.’ It feels right. I trust my instincts and I trust my gut and I trust myself. I’m going to keep writing until the story stops flowing, at which point I might cry. And pray to the Heaven’s to open back up the flood gate of vision. In the meantime, I’ll be asking for beta readers on Better Than This in another week or two. I’m super paranoid with this stuff so I have to spot-read it again, (hence the two weeks).

So, with all that juicy gossip spilled: onto the optional question!

Have you ever surprised yourself with your writing? For example, by trying a new genre you didn’t think you’d be comfortable in?

Yes.

I’ve been surprised by what I’ve written. There were some things I never thought I’d write. Like, ever. Things like sex or nightmares or death. These were things I didn’t think I wanted to write about, or could write well. But I did. I wrote each scene because I had to, because it was necessary to the story and when that’s the case, you realize you are capable of writing anything your characters demand. It’s a strange awakening.

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IWSG – Still Chugging Along

I’m a flake. Total flake. I missed the last IWSG AGAIN and I don’t even remember July getting here. And now it’s August. And I need to start saving for Christmas because it’s going to be next year soon and then I’ll be forty and then seventy and then I’ll die. That’s how fast life goes. You’re 31 and then you die.

Anyway.

I’ve been okay recently. Actually, better than okay. I’ve been—is hopeful the right word? Excited about the future? All good vibes towards later, possible events? Whatever the right way is to convey it: I’m starting to understand—and I’m not being corny here—my life’s purpose. It’s something I struggle with since I’m constantly angry and disappointed in myself for being where I am at this stage in my life. It’s been bothering me for a while (like, years) and I just don’t know how to change it. So, I write. I write the fiction I’ve always wanted to write (sitting on a bestsellers shelf in B&N, right?) and I write to understand why I write, the struggles that come with it, both in the creative realm and outside it. That’s probably why I enjoy this group so much and why I SHANT BE KICKED OUT TODAY.

So, remember in June when I said I was changing the ending to my WIP and that it’s okay to be a panster even when (and especially) something like that happens (you probably don’t since nobody really reads this)? Well I’m happy to say I rewrote the entire ‘third act’ and after weaving in some new details and events, I’m LOVING MY NEW ENDING. So much better. Like, leaps and bounds. Like, it was cute the first time around but now it’s a DAMN GIRL. Yeah. I’m happy with it. 😊

I hope to be asking for BETAs sometime in the near future because I think it’s nearing completion. Maybe? Hopefully? I think I have another two read-throughs (which should take me a month total) so after that… yeah…other people’s reading it. The really scary, sucky part of this whole thing. Can’t wait.

I was going to answer this month’s question, but I don’t really have any pet peeves, at least, none worth mentioning. So there. I guess I did answer the question. Thrilling, I know.

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IWSG – Who’s a quitter?

I missed last month which makes me lame.

I know.

I almost missed this month if not for the fear of being kicked out of the group, which I super rarely participate in, but still like being a part of. I never join things. Never liked it. I’m more of a social loner who prefers to be by myself, except when I don’t. Like when the trials of being a writer (or any artist) gets too much, it’s good to have a group of people who get it. People who know what you mean because it’s their struggle too.

With all that said—HA! Can’t kick me out now 😉 I’m here. I have my “Hello my name is” sticker and I’m ready to go. Point me toward the refreshment table and let’s do this.

 Did you ever say “I quit?” If so, what happened to make you come back to writing?

No. I’ve never decided to quit.

I’ve teased myself with the idea before, but never fully committed. I don’t think I can. Without sounding too cheese or corny—and maybe some of you can relate—if I go too long without writing, I lose something. Some part of myself that makes me feel like me, a part that makes everything… okayish. I think if I did quit writing, I’d be this totally other person, someone I wouldn’t like, someone who, besides being incredibly attractive, wouldn’t have that spark. That excitement. The thing that makes peoples’ eyes light up.

I’m sure I’ll teeter on the idea of quitting again, at some point when something’s not going the way I planned. I may even decide to take a week off. But then the need to scratch the never-ending itch returns and the sun comes back out again.

Insecure Writer’s Support Group (IWSG) is a monthly blog hop for writers at all levels to share their fears and insecurities in a safe and encouraging place. Please drop by and say hi to Alex Cavanaugh who started this nifty concept in bringing us all together.

P.S. I’m watching 13 Reasons Why. Anyone else? Thoughts?

IWSG – Hanging in there

I’ve not been great lately.

Which is the reason for my blog-absence and maybe why I haven’t written you back or commented on your post or reached out and sent a text (not that I do very often, but usually I don’t like gaps going this long between us. Sorry, guys). There’s just been stuff in my head. And stuff outside my head, like screaming and a lot of crying and a phone being destroyed. Oh, and someone stole $300 dollars from me. Electronically, so the bank has refunded me… pending further investigation upon my whereabouts the other week. There’s also been thoughts. Sad scary thoughts that make me even sadder (and sometimes more afraid) but I’ve been pushing through them with Batman’s help and the Universe/God sending me clues that it’s going to be okay. And it will be. But sometimes it feels like it won’t be and my shoulders get really tight and I feel like they’re going to break even when I tell myself they’re shatter-proof.

But I’ve been writing every day and working on Morty & Co.—a pictorial culmination of what almost a decade in an office can (and has) done to a person. Some days I look at it and think it’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever created and others I’m working on it for hours. Artist mentality at its finest.

I’m going to be bold and opt not to answer the monthly question. It’s a good one, but I feel like I’d be battering myself because I don’t take advantage of the free help and writing about that could spin me into a downward spiral of reasons why I’m going to fail and I’ve just now peeked over the pit I’ve fallen into. So, I’m going to look up—or straight ahead—instead of down and take a pass on this one.

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New Things are Awesome Things, IWSG

Oh yeah.

Guess who figured out how to use the camera on this here computer. Wait for it.

So that’s me. Very strange. Obviously enchanting.

Anyway.

I’m dipping my toe into the video aspect of the internet. Not sure I’m going full vlog, but I plan on dying someday so I figure there’s no time like the lively present to do something I’ve been vaguely curious about. I’ll be dipping an even bigger toe in next Friday at 8 (like, next Friday – 3/10) when I will live stream on Christie’s Coffee Corner, a weekly interview session with authors.

Oh yeah. This is happening. It’s us hanging out while you ask me questions and I answer them or you don’t ask me anything and I end up staring awkwardly at you. Either way. This shit is going down. Stalkers are welcome, but please limit your questions to the appropriate ones. Oh, and um, no math queries. Let’s keep it reasonable here, people.

Other than Christie’s Coffee Corner, I’m still working on BTT, and can’t wait to get some Betas on board. It needs at least one more round of edits before it’s presentable, but every day I feel a little bit closer to that finish line. I’m also working on this super awesome secret project that I cannot WAIT to reveal and when it gets closer to nearing completion—which it isn’t—I will. So, for now, let me dazzle you with how excited I am for Better Than This, my soon to be first YA Contemporary Romance. AND it features musicians. Come on, guys. MUSICIANS.

Now, onto the optional question for IWSG!

Have you ever pulled out a really old story and reworked it? Did it work out?

I guess short answer… no?

I’ve definitely opened old documents and chuckled to myself, mostly at the poor writing. But I never dive into them. At least I haven’t, yet. I think I’m the kind of writer that needs to write in the moment because if I’m excited by something, that’s the time to write it. Of course, if I came across a project I’d forgotten I’d written, something that intrigued me… then sure, why not? Anything’s possible. 😉

Insecure Writer’s Support Group (IWSG) is a monthly blog hop for writers at all levels to share their fears and insecurities in a safe and encouraging place. Please drop by and say hi to Alex Cavanaugh who started this nifty concept in bringing us all together.