This should probably be saved for IWSG, but I’m not feeling confident about writing. ☹
At all.
Let me start again.
I’m not feeling confident about writing for a living. I want to (really, really), but I’m just not confident that it’s ever going to happen. Like, ever. Hopefully, this is the tiny pessimist in me screaming to be heard, and she’ll just shut up. Maybe she won’t. She’s been singing this bull for years and sometimes I get sucked in. Grr.
I’m just overwhelmed. Not by the writing part, but the everything-else part. Some people can write AND hold down a fulltime job (with overtime) AND be happy in their relationships/social lives AND only sleep three hours but that’s not me. I need eight hours.
I’m fine, really. Just feeling a little sad, and maybe disappointed. I’m sure this will pass until the pessimist returns again in five or six months, but by then, I should have a decent wine collection going, so I’ll deal with it discreetly.
There’re a lot of positive/encouraging things I post on FB, and yes, it’s mainly for all of you, because I know you’re all hurting in your own private ways. But I also post them for me as a reminder to breathe, and that it’s going to be okay. So, maybe I won’t write for a living, and maybe I’m not supposed to. Maybe there’s something else way cooler that I’m supposed to do? *shrugs*
I honestly have no idea.
But it’ll be okay. I have a wine collection growing. Life can’t be that bad. 😊
You have to do what makes you happy and gives you satisfaction. I’m old, and it took me a long time to figure that out. I love to write, but I view writing as a hobby that pays for itself. It doesn’t support my lifestyle… not yet, and maybe never. I can live with that because I worked and saved many years to get to this point. And I also keep a good selection of wines.