I’ve decided to have a Thank Bank. It’s kind of like a Spank Bank but way different. Instead of a collection of erotic ideas, images, what-have-yous, it’s a place for me to go whenever I’m feeling like shit and everything I do/write is shit and the whole ‘I should just give up now’ mentality is taking over, because a Thank Bank is place I store all the positive things people have said about me/my writing that I’m so grateful for. Alas, a Thank Bank. 😉
I’m prepping myself for the release. Right now, I’m gung ho because the excitement is still high with optimism, but in the next week I’m going to be hit with the ‘what-ifs’ and that is the WORST part because that’s when all your life choices come to light. AKA: the heavy drinking starts. WHAT IF no one likes it? WHAT IF it doesn’t sell? WHAT IF I missed a bunch of things (plot holes/typos). WHAT IF everyone knows I’m a fraud? The list goes on and on. It’s a super fun time.
Hence, my Thank Bank.
We authors/creators/introverts take a lot of stuff to heart. Even if it’s a passing comment or a two-sentence bit of criticism. It goes a long way and sometimes, we’ll think about that comment or criticism for far longer than we should. Don’t blame us. We hate it ourselves. Just a reminder that your words hold a lot, so when you say “has anyone told you what a great writer you are today? If not, allow me to do so!” it goes a really long way. Seriously.
*Clink*
One deposit into the Thank Bank 😊
Also: the Faleena Hopkins thing has been blowing up all over my Indie platforms. Have you heard about this? Apparently this author is trademarking the word ‘Cocky’ in book titles so it can’t be used by other authors, and now a bunch of them have to change their titles. Wtf? Let’s get it together, people. Enough with the bullshit.
In other news, I started watching Hemlock Grove on Netflix. Um. I don’t know how to describe my reaction to it. But I’m still going to watch Season 2. This is on you, Shelby.
I LOVE your ‘Thank Bank’ idea! I think we all need one of those.
I needed that yesterday. I started reading Barbara Kingsolver’s High Tide in Tucson. I was just loving how she phrased so much of her writing – and then the kick-me-blues sets in. Because I can’t write like THAT…then my writing is s*it. It’s like there’s no in-between and we (I) beat myself up because I’m not that that level, hence my writing’s doodoo.
That’s for this – I needed to see this this morning.
Good luck with your release!!!
OMG I feel the SAME way sometimes. If I read something so perfect that it gives me goosebumps, I *literally* put the book down and think, wtf do I bother? I’ll never sound like that. So, I get it. That’s why the Thank Bank is necessary, if only to keep yourself going (writing.)
Thanks!
Well, you don’t have to worry about the “What if no one likes it” because I can tell you right now that I like it. 🙂 You are an awesome writer and you create wonderful stories.
*clink* another deposit. Thanks, Loni!
And I like what I’ve read (I’m trying to wait until the official release date, but I may just read the .doc version and forget it since it’s sooooo far away!!!) So that guarantees two of us, and we have impeccable taste, so that means others will like it as well! I get that, though. I have the same panic crisis the minute i publish anything (and with these short stories that are one or two a month, it’s killing me this year. Worse, you don’t get reviews or feedback for shorts, so they just hang there in cyberspace and I have no idea.)
The thank bank is an awesome idea! I once read about an author who printed stuff up and hung it on her bulletin board kind of like that.
He-he, yes you both have impeccable taste 😉
That second (and the ones leading up to it) you push the publish button, panic mode is on. I hate it. But reminding myself that people (some who have impeccable taste) are rooting for me makes it a little easier.
And don’t you freak out! I’m rooting for you! I mean, come on? How could I not? I’m talking about the author who writes Verchiel here, aren’t I?
Awww, ty! (Though I think he writes himself sometimes…)