Something in my eye

My eye is twitching again.

I’m going to blame it on the panic/anxiety/depression of looking for a job and realizing I’M NOT QUALIFIED FOR ANYTHING. Sorry that I’m not fluent in Spanish or Portuguese or Russian and no, I’m not efficient in EVERY computer skill as well as having twenty years experience, the ability to travel, work mandatory OT, or have arbitrary licenses. Geez. I’m 32 and have worked in an office for the last ten years doing random office things. But since I like writing (and no, I don’t want to be a teacher) I have to find some way to make ends meet while hoping my shaky car doesn’t break down on me.

There goes my eye again.

I look around at my friends who are (pretty much all) proficient in their fields and think ‘what the hell is wrong with me?’ Where did I go wrong? I was a good student, went to college and even got into the top end of my program (I studied under the department head)—so, what the hell am I doing? How did I end up here?

I’m *really* surprised I’m not an addict or have a substance abuse problem because that just seems to come with the artist mindset/lifestyle anyway. Add in the depressing job situation and I should be scratching myself from withdrawals. I don’t know. I keep thinking I made a wrong turn somewhere but can’t figure out where. Or how. Sometimes, I wish I was meant to be a nurse or a teacher or some obvious occupation because then I wouldn’t so unsure of myself. Does that make sense? Anyway, at least Batman and I are popular enough to attend several weddings where there are open bars 😊 We went to one on St. Patty’s day and it was a blast!

Let’s switch to that because it’s less depressing and I remembered to take some pictures this time:

Beautiful ceremony area before it starts!

Groomsmen hanging out before it starts (Batman is second from the right)

Welcome sign is ETCHED GLASS! How cool?!?!

….and a close up

Picture before we get sloppy off the open bar. I mean, *ahem* before we partake in refreshments.

Great thing to do in lieu of favors (Titan is their Corgi)

The happy couple’s first dance 🙂

Oh, and, after spending about half an hour trying to get the Patreon widget to work, I decided not to bother again until MY EYE STOPS TWITCHING. If you’re interested in becoming one of my patrons or even just viewing my page, you can check it out HERE <—

Please tell me if that doesn’t work!  Thanks 🙂

And a good day to you all!

7 thoughts on “Something in my eye

  1. Loni Townsend says:

    Beautiful wedding! And I’m sorry to hear about the eye-twitching and all the causes behind it. Have you tried for freelance writing jobs? I don’t know if you’re the type of person who can write for other people based on a topic given (I know I’m not), but if your passion is writing, maybe that might be a source of income? One of the articles I pulled up linked to a few twitter accounts that post about money opportunities. I also know that ghost writing is a service they sell on Fiverr. But then again, writing for others might just exhaust all the writing powers and take up your writing-for-you time, and we don’t want that.

    • cgcoppola says:

      I’ve looked into free-lancing and you’re right – it’s not for me. But I want it to be for me SO BADLY because that seems like the magic answer, but there’s no passion behind it. Not even a little 🙁

      And Loni, thank you SOOOOOO MUCH for your pledge on Patreon! It really means a lot to me! Seriously! You have no idea. Thank you again!!!!

  2. Joleene Naylor says:

    My eye twitches when I get stressed. It is very, very, very annoying. Very. Hoping yours stops soon. Don’t be so hard on yourself, though. Sadly the art fields tend to have either money OR fulfillment, and very few artists find both at the same time.

    • cgcoppola says:

      I know the answer is to NOT stress… but that’s kind of not even an option 🙁

      Thanks for reminding me that I’m not crazy. Sometimes when you’re surrounded by successful people, you wonder why you’re not at the same level and it sucks. But you’re right. I’ve gotten used to the paycheck to paycheck lifestyle (when I had one coming in) as long as there was some writing fulfillment. Guess I got to keep moving forward 😉

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